Worries before surgery

Here come the worries & the what-ifs...
I rapidly went from:
"Yes! We found an awesome surgeon & the best option we've heard of yet to help treat Josiah's club feet"
to
"OMG, how are we going to do this? What about getting dressed, will undies fit over that? what about going to the bathroom, getting in &; out of the car, going out! (how can I push a wheel chair & a double stroller?), what about keeping the 6 exposed puncture areas clean.. I read they ooze, what if he's in pain? how can I stay at the hospital with him while I'm nursing Jackson? What if there are complications? What if something goes wrong?

I laid in bed last night- head spinning... and I just had to cry out to the Lord to take it all and let me sleep. I don't want to put my baby boy through this. I thought back to his 1st surgery at 6months old and how much my heart ached when they took him from my arms... and how I cried at the sight of him post-op with ginormous casts on, whimpering & crying out as he came-to.... but the Lord also reminded me of how we got through it... and how well Josiah actually did. He handled the surgery and castings so well. We got through it.

And man o man... things could be SO MUCH WORSE. There are so many people I know who are dealing with much harder & more critical situations. I feel guilty for my worry.

But he is my baby boy...

and I really don't want to see him in pain.

Dr. Nelson gave the mother of a current patient my number. She called me and confirmed some of my fears, and alleviated others. She said the first 2 weeks were rough. Her son was in pain and had a hard time just being comfortable. After that, though, she was pleasantly surprised at how well he was able to get around with it and how he went back to his normal self.

We will put all this out of our mind until June 21st and just enjoy ourselves while we're all able to!